Can You Enjoy Time Alone? | Growth & Resistance

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Hello and welcome to real men.
Feel I'm your host author coach

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and healer.
Andy, Grant, please, visit v&e

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Grant.com to learn more about me
and my offerings, if you notice

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today's episode looking and
sounding a bit different, that's

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because I'm on the road and
don't have my usual setup.

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Real men feel exist to remind
men that they are human beings

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and they have the right and
indeed the need to experience

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and express all of their
emotions.

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Are you comfortable being alone?
Can you enjoy your own company?

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Oftentimes men will feel
uncomfortable emotions.

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If they are alone and in
silence.

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I am an only child, so I'm used
to being alone, but I've always

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had music or TV playing in the
background.

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I wasn't the fan of absolute
silence because I wasn't a fan

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of some of my own thoughts.
Over the years and with lots of

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work and growth, I become
incredibly comfortable being on

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my own and with the Silence of
only my mind and my thoughts

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growing up, I thought doing
something in public alone meant

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you were a friendless loser.
I'd miss movies and concerts

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that I wanted to see but I
couldn't find someone to go with

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me so I missed out.
In recent years, I've started

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going to movies alone and love
it.

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There's no debate.
No hesitation, I don't need to

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convince somebody of anything.
I've even going to concerts

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alone to and enjoyed myself
didn't feel judged earlier.

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This year, I went to see Anthrax
in Boston on a Sunday night and

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it because I knew, I didn't even
bother asking anyone because I

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knew even the friends I have
that, like, Anthrax, we're not

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going to go out into Boston on a
Sunday night.

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I'm currently in Toronto,
Canada, for two weeks of

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training with the modern mystery
School.

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I've been recertified, as a
guide already and coming up,

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I'll be recertified as a Healer
and a life activation

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practitioner, then I have seven
days of new classes and I grow

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up here alone, it was a 12 hour
ride because from from Boston,

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to Toronto's, probably like
eight hours for most people, but

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I have drive a Tesla.
So I need to stop and recharge

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about every 90 minutes, or so,
on the highway, but had a blast.

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I was able to sing at the top.
Top of my lungs and every song

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played all day long was a song
that I loved.

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I've explored New Towns and
stores that each new stop, and

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the weather was just fantastic.
I drove up here on Sunday and

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today, Wednesday is the only
day.

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I don't have any classes.
I had planned to go to the

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Wonderland amusement park, which
is just 10 miles away from here.

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It's Canada's biggest and
perhaps only amusement park.

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I don't know, but they have some
great rides, including a world

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record, dive coaster.
So I dive coaster is when the

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The it's a it's a big like flat
coaster car and it just stops at

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the hill like a few seconds and
then then plummets down.

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So it's that moment of
anticipation with your hanging

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in your seat.
You're testing that seatbelt

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that restraint system, but I
just love that.

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If you know anything about me,
you know, I love roller

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coasters.
So I thought that would be what

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I would do.
And I plan to do a show, all

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about enjoying yourself and I
don't mean masturbation, but

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enjoying yourself going on
adventures by yourself and

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joining your own company and I
was kind of all sorts of cool

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photo.
He's with me on all these crazy

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rides and coasters, but no.
Because another thing comment on

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the path of spiritual growth and
healing is resistance.

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Technically known as your shit
as in, when you go outside your

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comfort zone, your shit will
rise up.

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Or we shine more light into
ourselves and our bees into our

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mind, the shadows, I'm or
parent.

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Saturday morning.
I was getting ready.

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I was getting my last workout in
before I left and my lower back

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locked up and my legs went numb,
and I collapsed to the floor in

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pain.
And I lay there, screaming and

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swearing and my wife was
upstairs.

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Thought I had a stroke or
something, but I could not move

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without pain.
I was worried my entire trip was

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in jeopardy.
Now, I've had this issue in the

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past, it's been years and I
don't recall it ever that bad

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but in the past it always took
at least two weeks and visiting

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the car packed like every other
day and heating and cooling

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pass.
It just took weeks and weeks of

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effort to get any sort of
Mobility back.

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So I was really concerned, it
looked Bleak and I felt lie but

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I called my chiropractor.
I got right in in for emergency

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appointment.
So for the first time I got

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treated within an hour of the
incident and found we going to

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be good ahead.
I had Hope.

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But the treatment hadn't had me
more pain.

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I left that chiropractic visit
in a limping and in more pain

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than I had gone in and it was
sometimes I have happened.

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But again I was I was doing my
best to feel confident but I

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didn't know physically how he's
going to be able to do this to

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sit through a 12 hour car ride,
so that I could be in classes

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sitting again for hours and
hours upon upon for two weeks.

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So, I did lots of prayer, lots
of rituals, lots of the things

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I've learned with the modern
mystery school.

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That's why people, lots of
things I do with with clients.

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And I did a longer video on
Facebook about my resistance to

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this, and my struggle with
prayer and with God, indeed in

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the past, and why this was such
a big deal and I'll put that in

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the show notes.
But by that afternoon, Saturday

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afternoon prayers were answered,
man, I was able to move.

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I was able to turn and move with
Grace.

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I could try on clothes and pack
and put things into my car, like

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I was before I was I would
literally could not move.

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I was on the ground in agony.
That's why my trip up here was

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even more joyous than ever
before.

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I felt liberated.
I felt I felt like destined and

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just like I pushed past
discomfort and resistance and

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nothing was going to stop me
from getting up here which is

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again especially important to be
this year.

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Because last year I should have
been here and I didn't come last

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year.
I chose the resistance.

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I chose the comfort of
retreating from my own light for

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being of service from growing
from pushing through.

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And the Tesla well that made all
the stops to test only did I

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needed those two because the
worst thing for me was sitting

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still.
So every time I got out of the

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car was like, oh, it took me a
few minutes but with a stopper,

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be 90 minutes.
I had a reason to get up and

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walk and within three minutes of
walking my back felt fine and

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Lucid upgrade.
So far, I've gone through two

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long days of sitting in class
and with just occasional bolts

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of pain as I try to get out of a
chair after a few hours, but I'm

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feeling extremely joyous filled
with this new energy and

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information and learning new
ways to be of service when I

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return home.
So, I'll miss the roller

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coasters, but I'll gladly
celebrate my freedom of movement

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and room and feel will be taking
a two-week break so I can focus

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on my mystery School trainings,
Please enjoy and celebrate you

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in some way.
If you can't Enjoy the Silence

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of your own existence.
Ask why perhaps Journal right,

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speak out loud or fall to the
ground and pray for help and

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guidance?
I do all those things.

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So until next time, wherever
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And until next time be good to

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yourself.