From Illusions to Authenticity: Redefining Masculinity and Spirituality

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Hello and welcome to Real Men
Feel.

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I'm your host, author, coach and
healer Andy Grant.

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You can visit the Andy Grant to
learn more about me.

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This is my first show back after
an amazing trip to four

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countries in Africa and I've
shared some of the thrilling

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experiences on the Real Men Feel
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Bungee jumping, ziplining,
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above Victoria Falls.
So if travel and thrill seeking

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interest, you go go check that
out.

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In the meantime, Real Men Feel
reminds men that they are human

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beings and that they have the
right to experience and express

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all of their emotions.
We have conversations that most

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men are not having, but that all
men can benefit from.

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My guest today is Lux Vivens.
Lux is a full time healer,

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decadent health chef, artist and
ritual master with the Modern

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Mystery School.
Her main passion right now is

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the Whole Eye Magi clothing
line, 100% of the proceeds of

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which go to funding the Austin
Community Cares charity.

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Lux shares her views on
masculinity and femininity, what

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men really want and need, and
what women do that destroys the

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hearts of men.
She sees it being socially

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illegal to be a man these days.
Lux tells us one thing she

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wishes more men knew.
And I don't believe I've had

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this answer before.
Plus, she explores remothering

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the illusions men put out and
more on service, purpose, and

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joy.
Let's do it.

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Hello Lux and welcome to Real
Men Feel.

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Late last year you posted your
opinion on men on Facebook and

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it caught my my eye and
attention and I asked you a few

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people want to talk about that
further here and obviously you

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said yes because here you are.
Yes I did.

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I'm not sure I would say it was
my opinion on men in like a

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general term.
It was more like a never ending

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series of my view about the
masculine and the feminine that

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I'm constantly spewing
everywhere in real life and on

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social media 'cause I think it's
the biggest problem that we're

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currently facing as a
collective.

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Cool.
Well let me let me read at least

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part of this and get one up to
speed and on the same page.

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We can take it from there.
Men, in my opinion, it's not how

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ripped you are or how much money
you have or how many followers

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stumble behind you that makes
you attractive.

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Those things as soul offerings
magnetize you to broken or

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incubating parentheses, Young,
damaged, traumatized women.

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But you cannot then complain
that your poison bait caught

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poison fish to a solid woman.
That's all afterthought.

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What makes you burning hot to us
is authenticity, emotional

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intelligence, keeping your word,
publicly celebrating the women

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in your life space, holding
ability, internal stability,

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meaning not getting easily
triggered or defensive, and

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learning how to engage with
sexuality in a way that achieves

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mutual transcendence.
Because many of us were treated

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like human sex dolls the
majority of our dating life.

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And verily definitely and very
definitely not like goddesses

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and the literal portal between
dimensions.

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What about that feels contrary
to what most men think they

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should be putting out there into
the world that what the what

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they think makes them
attractive?

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Well, what most men are trying
to achieve is an illusion of

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success so that the idea of the
ideal woman will gravitate

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towards them.
It's merit based and it's

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performative.
So it's if I have X amount of

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money in my bank account, if I'm
driving such and such car, if I

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have the multi $1,000,000 house
on the Hill is one version, or

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if I have X amount of followers
on social media for the younger

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generations, whatever it is.
Or if I go to the gym six days a

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week and track my macros and
I'm, you know, busting out of my

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seams, then a woman who finds
that to be the, the bar of male

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success will just show up.
The problem with that is that,

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yes, that will magnetize you to
a certain vibration, but the

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woman who's going to come just
for that is not going to be what

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it is you're actually looking
for.

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And that's going to be exciting
for about 5 days to two years,

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depending on how smart you are.
And then you're going to be

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like, all right, so I've got
this hot chick on my arm, but I

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still feel empty inside.
Or I have this woman who comes

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from wealth on my arm, but I am
completely numb.

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Or I have this person who I'm
very attracted to, but there's

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no passion in the relationship.
And then they get to the midlife

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crisis point and have to re
evaluate everything instead of

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just from the get go, starting
from the inside and doing the

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internal work and talking to
women and having relationships

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with women that aren't just
romantic and then going OK, so a

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healthy heeled woman of value,
of true value, who is leading in

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the spiritual wants me to lead
in the physical.

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Who is this wants me to that you
know you, you fill in the puzzle

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1st and then you become the kind
of man who that woman would want

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not for her for yourself, but
then she she shows up right?

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So put yeah, putting forward an
illusion gets an illusion in

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return.
What what?

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Why do you think any man kind of
shuns and buries their

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authenticity and and puts on
that show to begin with?

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Because that's what they've been
trained to do from the day that

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they were born.
They're molded by their family

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and society and religion and
empire, as we have come to call

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it.
The forces that are trying to

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dehumanize all of us in various
ways.

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They've been told that real men
don't fill in the blank.

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Real men do fill in the blank,
but it's usually totally

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opposite.
It's like the ability to

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navigate your emotions and
express them and hold the

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container for the volcano.
That is the feminine capacity

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for emotion, which is greater
than the masculines is a

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superpower and men have been
basically neutered because it

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makes you easy to control.
That's it sounds simplistic, but

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that's really the bottom line of
why women and men are in the

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place that we're in now goes all
the way back to the Roman

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Empire.
It makes us easier to just feed

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off of.
So a man who is has the courage

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to say, I'm going to really
dedicate time, energy, money,

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focus to what am I feeling now
and what are my trapped and

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blocked emotions that I have
held onto that have become, you

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know, literal my literal prison
that I'm living in.

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Release those.
And then you can get to the

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point where you have a healthy
emotional expression, which is 7

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to 15 minutes, right?
And then it's done.

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Not 20 years of that One time I
said this or she laughed at me

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for that or whatever.
Like, that's not, that's not a

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healthy landscape.
But having emotions is the

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entire freaking point of being
human.

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And it's how our souls talk to
us.

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So if if it's how our souls talk
to us and men are told not to

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have them, what does that do to
you spiritually?

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And that explains where there's
so many more women.

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Any spiritual environment you go
into, almost any, not like

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Tibetan monks, but almost any
spiritual environment you go

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into, it's 90% women.
And that's because the men have

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been cut off from that.
It's it's, it's super

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intentional.
Did you grow up with with men

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willing to be open, willing to
do the inner work and that's why

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you've you've uncovered this?
Or is it your own experiences

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with that, that traditional mail
that that made you your part of

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your awakening to this issue?
I grew up probably the same way

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other people did.
I mean, it didn't grow up the

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average way in, in almost any
other facet, but I had lots of

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men that were just doing what
you're supposed to do, jumping

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through the hoops and and doing
the performative thing.

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So it wasn't that it was really
when I in well, right when I

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turned 30I became a like a
sacred surrogate, which is kind

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of like a sugar baby, except
your focus is the spiritual

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evolution of the person, not,
you know, sexual gratification.

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And there were there were actual
relationships that just had a

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very strict boundary and I lived
with them a lot of times.

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I was in love several times, but
my job was to basically awaken

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that, that dormant spiritual
seed and give them permission to

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let go of all the bullshit and
go, well, who, who am I?

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What do I actually want?
If I take away all of the social

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expectations?
I consider it like cult

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deprogramming, You know, it's a
very slow and methodical

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process.
But these are very high income,

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career oriented men.
A lot of them were like, you

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know, the top 1% in the world as
far as wealth goes.

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And they're miserable.
They're the most miserable

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people I ever met as they had
everything that they were

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supposed to have.
They had all of the trappings of

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of success and their insides
were like just cavernous

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torment, just constant silent
screaming.

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You know, they were they were in
hell.

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They were in their own hell and
breaking them out of that very

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slowly.
And by doing that, which I did

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for the vast majority of that
decade until about 5 years ago,

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I saw the pattern very, very,
very clearly.

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Because my sample size is huge.
I've worked with at this point,

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I've worked with hundreds and
hundreds of men in a healing

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capacity and I've been able to
talk to them in a space where

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their vulnerability is not only
acceptable, it's encouraged.

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So I feel like I objectively
understand men better than

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pretty much any woman and more
than a lot of men, right?

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Because I've, I've talked to
such a huge sample size and

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they're all hurting in the same
way and they're all wanting the

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same thing and they're all
unfulfilled in the same way.

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And the message that they really
want to get out, or that I

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really want to get out on their
behalf is women and men both

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have a lot of heavy lifting to
fix this.

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The most immediate and simple
ways that we can do our part as

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women is to start appreciating
and expressing appreciation for

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men.
All men.

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Not just your husband or your
boyfriend or your son or your

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boss or whatever.
Every man you see in public who

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expect them to open the door for
you, expect the best for them.

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Stop expecting the worst, start
expecting the best and you will

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start getting it.
I guarantee it.

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When they open the door for you,
say thank you.

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Express gratitude.
When they help you with some

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manual task, even if that's
their job, express genuine

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appreciation and stop nagging.
If there are things that they

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could be doing better than we,
express that in a constructive

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criticism two way conversation.
Here's how I'm showing up in a

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relationship.
How can I better serve you?

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Here are my needs that are not
being fulfilled.

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We do not nitpick.
It's destroying the heart of a

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man when you nag because it's
the opposite of what feeds them.

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They want thank you.
They want appreciation for what

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they do in the world and in the.
Home.

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I saw nearby you called yourself
a a sensual alchemist.

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Is that that surrogate role
you're Speaking of?

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No, that was last lifetime.
Sensual alchemy is I came up

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with it based on that
experience, but instead of being

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in relationships with people,
I'm having, you know, one hour

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sessions where we're, most
people show up because they

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think they are not satisfied
with their sex life, either

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their own or with their wife or
whatever.

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And I tell people I'm very
honest about the fact that it's

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a bait and switch.
I say the bait is that there's

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something sexually that isn't
being satisfied.

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But the switch is that once you
get here, I'm going to show you

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how it really has nothing to do
with sex and is entirely about

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your resistance to spiritual
evolution and what the actual

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power behind sex is, which is
the creation energy in our hara

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chakras, which is just being
wasted.

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And as a man, when you're
constantly pursuing, you know,

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dopamine and self pleasuring and
watching videos that are

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draining the life out of you all
day, every day for years,

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you're, you're creating creation
energy.

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You know, you're generating
creation energy and then you're,

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you're wasting it.
You're spilling your seed is

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draining your chi.
So that's when men die faster.

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That's where they start losing
their hair.

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That's what I mean.
Yes, there's physical

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components, but everything
physical starts in the

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spiritual, right?
So like your hormones just

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deplete and everything you you
start shriveling is and drooping

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and you just see like the life
sucked out of a man who has been

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living in that way versus you
look at a man who has a healthy

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relationship with a woman who is
supporting him and who is

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filling her feminine role and
allowing him to fill his

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masculine role.
And they're thriving.

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They look way younger than their
age.

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They're glowing.
You know they're willing to help

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everyone around them at all
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They're they're service
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From, from all the men that
you've worked with and you said

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you knew what they wanted and
they, they, they all wanted the

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same thing and all the same kind
of kind of issues.

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So what?
What do you see that those men

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and all men want?
The core is They want to serve,

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they want to fulfill their
purpose and they want to fulfill

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their mission on the planet.
And everyone has an entirely

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different path.
They get distracted by career

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being purpose, but that's just,
you know, matrix physical level

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reality.
What is your soul's purpose is

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the North Star and that's what
they would like permission to

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do, which they don't feel
they've been allowed to like

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still to this day.
It's a lot more socially

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acceptable.
But you, you talk about

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spiritual stuff with men and
they get very like, you know, I,

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I don't want to be seen as like
coloring out sort of lines or,

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or believing in make believe or
whatever it is.

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You know, let's, let's talk
about it in scientific terms.

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And I'm like, OK, we can talk
about it in scientific terms

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because it's all the same thing.
We can talk about it in terms of

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quantum physics, if that makes
you more comfortable.

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But really we're still talking
about your divine nature and

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your reconnection to that.
That's the, the root level of

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what they want.
The more surface level is the

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the desire for appreciation for
what they contribute to the

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world, which is a huge problem
right now because it's I always,

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I keep saying that it's, it's
illegal, You know, it's socially

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illegal to be a man right now,
especially a a white man or a

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straight man or whatever.
It's like, what if you if the

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message that you're getting
every time you talk to someone

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or go out in the world or log on
to your social media, If the

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message that you're being
bombarded with all day, every

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day is that you're invalid, that
there's something wrong with you

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that that that by the very way
you were born, you're less than?

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Well, doesn't that sound
familiar?

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It's like the things that we're
all on the same page about,

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which is that you, you don't get
to tell somebody that they're

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less than you for being gay or
you don't get to tell somebody

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that they're less than you for
being a different race.

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We're we're mostly other than,
you know, Nazis.

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We're mostly on the same page
about that in 2025.

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And yet how is it OK to tell men
which is, you know, a way bigger

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percentage of the population
than different races and

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different sexual orientations?
How is it OK to tell them that

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they're the root of all evil,
that they're the problem with

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everything and that they and
that their voice, this isn't the

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time, you know, just just sit
and listen.

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You've been in control for so
long.

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Now it's time for you to just
shut up and listen.

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Like, no, that's not you don't
fix something by replicating it.

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And this goes back to the
oppressor will always mimic the

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oppressor.
The people that feel like they

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haven't been appreciated or
validated for the way that they

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were born are now doing the
exact same thing, but it's

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currently OK to do it to men.
So what do you see as the

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solution to this?
I think trying to figure out the

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solution from the big picture is
what's distracting everybody

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from what's actually going to
fix it, which is me, you as an

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individual.
I did used to expect the worst

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from men.
And you can go into chicken or

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the egg.
Like there were things that

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happened that put me in that
perspective.

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And all of the most terrific and
traumatizing things that I've

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ever experienced in my life has
been from the hands of the man.

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But when I was expecting the
worst, I got the worst and I was

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angry and I was like don't talk
to me when I was out in public

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and I was getting harassed
because I was like preparing.

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I was pre clenching for some
bullshit and then I would get

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some bullshit.
And then when I did a lot of

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internal healing, both on my own
shadow work and receiving

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external healings eventually.
I completely dropped all of

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that, all of the social
conditioning, all of my biases

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from personal experiences, all
of the things that I was being

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told to expect from other women
on social media, right?

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Which we're training each other
to expect the worst.

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I dropped all of that and
started expecting the best.

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And that's what I get now.
Everywhere I go, every man I

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interact with, whether it's a
client or in public, they are so

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joyful to serve.
Even if it's just opening the

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door or even if it's helping me
put down the truck so I can put

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something, you know, put my
groceries in or whatever.

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Just any little.
They're so eager to do that.

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And then when I in turn am
genuinely so appreciative, their

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their faces just light up.
Like, you see the little boy who

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just wants to do his job and do
it well.

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And I think that changes their
whole day, you know?

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And then the next time they see
a woman, they aren't gonna have

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that well, is it OK to open the
door or not?

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It's, you know, conversation.
Like, is she gonna be mad at me

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or like I'm insinuating that she
can't open the door herself or

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any of those things?
They're less likely and they're

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more likely to just do it.
And then that causes a ripple

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effect.
So I think the way that we fix

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it is by one healing our own
internal nonsense that is

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attracting the same level of
person, you know, So we, we

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graduate and then we take the
time to talk to all of the

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people in our lives who are
examples of whatever The thing

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is that we're working on.
We have conversations with them

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and we listen.
We really listen.

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And we go, OK, so I'm not gonna
react.

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I'm not going to overlay my
experience.

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I'm not gonna filter your, your
reality through my understanding

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of things.
I'm gonna be completely blank

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slate and allow you to express
yourself and then you can figure

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out what people want and need
because they'll they'll tell

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you.
They'll straight up tell you.

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There's a lot, a lot in there.
So it's interesting to to to me

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for for the sake of real men
feel the importance of service

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has been showing up for like the
last six months in almost every

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conversation.
And one thing I've often said is

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that nobody told me how joyful
service felt to to give that

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service about anything.
And it's what you're talking

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about, like growing up, you
know, a Boy Scout was supposed

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to help an old lady across the
street with the groceries.

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So it just made it seem like a
cliche and silly.

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But I find whenever, when I'm
feeling at my worst, if I find a

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way to help someone else in big,
small and different, it always

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makes me feel better.
And one of the greatest paths to

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uncovering my purpose with has
been via service.

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So it's like you're saying, so
did that purpose uncovered

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through service, is that at the
core for for everybody?

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Yes, because that's what we're
here to do.

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So when you're serving another
person, you're, you're serving a

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part of the collective 1 and
you're closer to God, you're,

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you're reconnecting in a
microcosmic, microcosmic way to

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the all that is.
And that's also why we crave

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romantic relationships.
But you can get that from

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helping an old lady across the
street.

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You know, it makes you feel
better because it makes you feel

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more godly.
It's as simple as that.

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And the more you can stay in
that ray of consciousness, the

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more joyful that you will be.
And when you meet people that

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are high level mystery school
initiates, which we're both

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affiliated with, that's the
thing that they all have in

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common is they're just like
beaming.

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They're just radiating joy so
powerfully that it's almost

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concerning in the beginning when
you don't know what you're

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looking at.
Like, I remember I, I've had a

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couple of crises of faith, which
I think is normal when you're

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starting on the path because
it's like such a completely

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different, you know, you're
breaking out of a whole system.

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But my second one, the thing
that I pointed to that was like,

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This is why I'm right and that,
you know, I shouldn't be doing

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this and you know, I don't want
to be involved with these people

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is the way that all the Divinas
have the same smile.

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And I was like, it's like POD
people, you know, they're like

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Step 4 wives or something.
You'll have the same smile.

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And I got over that.
I got, I got, I got through that

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crisis faith.
But funnily enough, I was just

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at my second Kabbalah ascension
a couple weekends ago.

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And there's a picture of me with
my best friend that I'll send

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you, and we both have the same
smile, the smile that I would

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always point to and be like,
there's something weird, you

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know, like nobody's that happy.
They've got to be pretending.

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And I was like, oh, the smile is
true, authentic, completely

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uninterpreted through any human
lunch.

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It's just joy is what it is.
I that, yeah, I have similar

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experiences for sure.
And, and for me, the, the

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doubts, not only at the
beginning of the path, it's

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showed up towards what's
supposed to be the end of it,

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then towards the end of it too.
But yeah, joy, you know, joy

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isn't something attributed to
men very often.

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And even that like we're, you
know, hungry, horny, angry,

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that's like, that's kind of the
limit that, that, that men allow

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themselves and that they're told
to allow themselves.

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But yeah, I, I've had people
come, I, I think, yeah, I used

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to teach like e-book classes and
entrepreneurship for, for like

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small self self-employed, like
psychics and mediums was the, my

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little niche.
And people would come to see if

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I was really as happy as I
seemed online.

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And they, they doubted that they
came to see if I was real or

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not.
And it's just so funny, 'cause,

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you know, I've major depression
for years and years of my life,

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multiple suicide attempts.
I'm like, have you not seen that

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part of my story?
Like you think you think I'm

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only, you can only be one or the
other.

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Like, no, you know,
unfortunately can be at all.

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But yeah, Joy's infectious joy
spreads.

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I used to think when I, when I,
when I was depressed as a kid, I

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thought happy people were fake.
I thought depression was the

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reality of our world and happy
people were lying to themselves.

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Well, most of the happy people
are fake, but there's a huge

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difference between happiness and
joy.

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Almost every happy person I've
ever met is, I mean, they're all

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reacting to some external
stimuli, but it's also, it's a

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flash in the pan, you know, it's
a mask that you can only hold

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for so long before it starts
cracking.

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And that's why a lot of people
self isolate is 'cause they're

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like, if I'm only seen for 10
minutes here or an hour at this

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event, or I super curate my
social media so my life seems

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different than it is, then
nobody will see me and they

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won't notice that the small
little cracks around the smile

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and the whole thing breaks
apart.

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You know, I've been helping a
friend worked through that for

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almost a year now, and he's
still terrified for anybody to

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see him.
And it's like the root of that

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is not understanding what joy
is.

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So you're pursuing all of the
external solutions, both in the

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sense of temporary emotions and
in the sense of stimulation,

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whether it's food or sex drive
or exercise or money or whatever

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it is just like, well, if I can,
maybe this band aid'll work.

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Nope, maybe this band aid'll
work.

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But you, you can't fill a God
shaped hole with anything but

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God.
It's impossible.

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Doesn't matter.
You put the entire universe in

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that hole, it's not gonna seal
it.

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You know what they're afraid of
is the having to look at

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themselves, right 'cause we're
all mirrors.

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So if you don't, if you're
terrified of other people's,

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see, what it actually means is
that you're terrified to look at

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yourself.
And the reason that you're

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terrified to look at yourself is
because instinctively you know

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that that means you'll have to
process the concept of your

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divinity.
And why is that terrifying?

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Because it means that you have a
shit load of responsibility.

447
00:29:43,480 --> 00:29:46,160
It means that everything you
think is important because it

448
00:29:46,160 --> 00:29:50,640
becomes a reality on some level,
on some dimensional plane.

449
00:29:51,000 --> 00:29:54,560
Everything that you do is
important all day, every day,

450
00:29:54,560 --> 00:29:57,640
every second of your day.
The quality of food that you put

451
00:29:57,640 --> 00:30:00,520
in your body, the quality of
thought that you allow, the

452
00:30:00,840 --> 00:30:02,520
quality of words that you
expressed.

453
00:30:02,800 --> 00:30:06,800
And that is terrifying.
Like even I have days where I'm

454
00:30:06,800 --> 00:30:10,400
like paralyzed, I'm in bed.
I'm just like, I'm not feeling

455
00:30:10,400 --> 00:30:15,440
at my best and I'm, I know the
consequences of that.

456
00:30:15,440 --> 00:30:18,760
So I'm just going to like stay
here on the blankets with my

457
00:30:18,760 --> 00:30:23,400
puppies until I feel better.
Well, that's a huge thing to

458
00:30:23,400 --> 00:30:26,360
wrap your head around,
especially if you are completely

459
00:30:26,360 --> 00:30:29,920
lost in the matrix and, and
these concepts are totally

460
00:30:29,920 --> 00:30:32,880
foreign to you, you know, and
that's why people don't want to

461
00:30:32,880 --> 00:30:35,720
be seen.
There's one term you mentioned.

462
00:30:35,720 --> 00:30:38,040
The first time we spoke, they
wanted to get back and get you.

463
00:30:38,040 --> 00:30:40,000
You talked about that.
One of the things you did was

464
00:30:40,000 --> 00:30:42,640
was remothering and I'd never
heard of that before.

465
00:30:42,680 --> 00:30:50,560
And can you expand on that?
Yes, so most women's core wound

466
00:30:50,680 --> 00:30:57,600
is daddy issues and most men's
core wound is mom issues, which

467
00:30:57,920 --> 00:31:02,760
is just kind of how we chose for
the system to work.

468
00:31:03,920 --> 00:31:09,840
So a a man's job is to make a
woman feel safe both physically

469
00:31:09,840 --> 00:31:12,560
and emotionally.
It's his job to protect the

470
00:31:12,560 --> 00:31:16,920
goddess in the physical right?
But if he didn't have an example

471
00:31:16,920 --> 00:31:21,680
of unconditional nurturing love
from his mother, then he doesn't

472
00:31:21,680 --> 00:31:24,920
know how to do that.
That's that's where you learn it

473
00:31:25,120 --> 00:31:29,120
as a boy is you.
You see the mother archetype.

474
00:31:29,400 --> 00:31:35,800
You interact with your own
mother as a example of her, and

475
00:31:35,800 --> 00:31:40,240
then you have like a blueprint.
And then when you're a man,

476
00:31:40,240 --> 00:31:43,120
you're able to kind of activate
that blueprint.

477
00:31:43,440 --> 00:31:47,040
And that's allows you to care
about all the women in your

478
00:31:47,440 --> 00:31:49,480
vicinity.
It also allows you to have a

479
00:31:49,480 --> 00:31:52,360
deeply meaningful relationship
with your partner.

480
00:31:52,720 --> 00:31:57,320
If you didn't have that, then
you don't really know what

481
00:31:57,320 --> 00:32:01,480
you're supposed to be doing.
And even if you try, you just

482
00:32:01,480 --> 00:32:04,640
don't have the skill set.
And those men tend to have

483
00:32:05,400 --> 00:32:08,040
deeply problematic romantic
relationships.

484
00:32:08,120 --> 00:32:11,560
They're usually married because
you're supposed to do that.

485
00:32:12,280 --> 00:32:17,640
And they're they're not good
husbands and they're not being

486
00:32:17,640 --> 00:32:20,200
treated well by their wives
because they're just re enacting

487
00:32:20,200 --> 00:32:25,600
this core wound.
So what I do is you literally

488
00:32:25,720 --> 00:32:30,560
man or woman, right?
I specialized in men's healing

489
00:32:30,560 --> 00:32:33,560
for like 12 years, but I also
treat women.

490
00:32:35,040 --> 00:32:38,520
So they, man or woman, they
literally lie in my lap and I

491
00:32:38,520 --> 00:32:43,520
hold them like a baby and I put
my hand on their different

492
00:32:43,760 --> 00:32:47,680
chakras and I flow energy.
And if it's a man, I very slowly

493
00:32:47,680 --> 00:32:52,080
start to open up the armor
around his heart chakra.

494
00:32:52,080 --> 00:32:54,840
But you have to be really
careful and go very slow with a

495
00:32:54,840 --> 00:32:56,200
man 'cause otherwise they freak
out.

496
00:32:56,920 --> 00:32:59,200
All of a sudden they're feeling,
you know, 40 years of emotions

497
00:32:59,200 --> 00:33:01,160
and they just like, what's their
shit?

498
00:33:01,600 --> 00:33:04,560
You just little, little tinkle
here, a little tinkle there.

499
00:33:04,960 --> 00:33:10,240
And then once they have felt
pure unconditional love from a

500
00:33:10,240 --> 00:33:12,160
woman, it changes their entire
lives.

501
00:33:13,680 --> 00:33:18,240
A lot of times after just one
session and after six months or

502
00:33:18,240 --> 00:33:21,280
a year or whatever, So many
people have told me, you know,

503
00:33:21,280 --> 00:33:25,760
I'm a good husband now, I'm a
good father now.

504
00:33:25,760 --> 00:33:28,520
I have good relationships with
all the women in my life and I

505
00:33:28,520 --> 00:33:30,760
have good relationships with
myself.

506
00:33:30,760 --> 00:33:35,120
Because we don't feel, if you
never feel unconditional love,

507
00:33:36,680 --> 00:33:40,640
you're hurting 24/7 your whole
life 'cause you're, you're,

508
00:33:40,800 --> 00:33:45,640
you're feeling the separation
from spirit in a medicines and

509
00:33:45,640 --> 00:33:50,520
you're also feeling that same
separation in, in this human

510
00:33:50,520 --> 00:33:54,200
consciousness in this life.
It's too much pain for one

511
00:33:54,200 --> 00:33:56,000
person to handle.
That's, that's too much.

512
00:33:56,280 --> 00:34:01,520
And that leads to bad behavior,
addiction, you know, monkey mind

513
00:34:01,520 --> 00:34:05,440
anxiety, having to be on all
kinds of prescription

514
00:34:05,440 --> 00:34:10,120
medications, porn addiction.
It leads to lots of problems.

515
00:34:10,320 --> 00:34:14,400
If so, if you can just basically
put that missing piece where it

516
00:34:14,400 --> 00:34:18,920
goes, then the rest of it kind
of like takes care of itself.

517
00:34:18,920 --> 00:34:24,040
It's my favorite type of healing
to offer people.

518
00:34:24,040 --> 00:34:27,120
And I would say that it's
probably my main specialty

519
00:34:27,120 --> 00:34:29,360
because I don't know a lot of
people that can do it.

520
00:34:29,760 --> 00:34:32,800
And my job is just to get out of
the way and let Divine Mother

521
00:34:32,800 --> 00:34:38,040
come in and do her thing.
Like I'm very skilled, but the

522
00:34:38,560 --> 00:34:40,560
my primary job is to get out of
the way.

523
00:34:40,960 --> 00:34:42,000
Right.
Yeah.

524
00:34:42,000 --> 00:34:45,880
And that which takes a lot of
skill to recognize that to be

525
00:34:45,880 --> 00:34:49,080
willing to to don't, not to
think that this is me doing this

526
00:34:49,080 --> 00:34:50,280
cool thing.
And yeah.

527
00:34:50,719 --> 00:34:55,400
Yeah, that's the main challenge
of being a skilled healer, I

528
00:34:55,400 --> 00:34:59,840
would say, is the I get constant
positive feedback all day, every

529
00:34:59,840 --> 00:35:02,520
day from people that are telling
me that I've changed their lives

530
00:35:02,520 --> 00:35:07,720
and I have to be like, no,
you're healing yourself.

531
00:35:07,720 --> 00:35:11,440
I'm just very good at
orchestrating the conditions

532
00:35:11,440 --> 00:35:13,520
that are allowing you to do
that.

533
00:35:13,800 --> 00:35:18,160
And I don't struggle with a
tendency towards ego very much

534
00:35:18,160 --> 00:35:21,400
because I've just done so much
work to keep it in its little

535
00:35:21,400 --> 00:35:24,000
corner.
But still, even me, you know,

536
00:35:24,000 --> 00:35:27,080
every once in a while I'd be
like, Wow, I'm like really

537
00:35:27,080 --> 00:35:30,240
awesome.
You know, stuff as as a very

538
00:35:30,240 --> 00:35:32,960
skilled healer, sometimes you
have to be like, OK, let's calm

539
00:35:32,960 --> 00:35:36,360
down.
With all your experience,

540
00:35:38,200 --> 00:35:41,440
personal and professional with
men, is there one thing that you

541
00:35:41,440 --> 00:35:44,840
wish more men knew?
One thing.

542
00:35:44,840 --> 00:35:53,200
Oh, geez.
OK, yeah, I would say I wish men

543
00:35:53,200 --> 00:35:56,520
understood that women don't
understand them.

544
00:35:57,400 --> 00:36:04,000
So it's not that we're trying to
be whatever, whatever your

545
00:36:04,000 --> 00:36:10,120
particular issue with women has
been, it's that we don't know

546
00:36:10,120 --> 00:36:13,720
what you want and what you need.
And men are not great at

547
00:36:13,720 --> 00:36:19,120
expressing that generally.
And also on the flip side, men

548
00:36:19,120 --> 00:36:21,520
don't understand women and what
they want and need.

549
00:36:22,520 --> 00:36:27,000
So it's it's not malicious the
vast majority of the time.

550
00:36:27,000 --> 00:36:30,560
It's not that she's trying to
undercut you or undermine you or

551
00:36:31,560 --> 00:36:35,160
not be supportive or or not be
appreciative enough or whatever.

552
00:36:35,160 --> 00:36:38,800
She just, her reality is
completely different.

553
00:36:39,320 --> 00:36:42,560
And we all make the mistake of
assuming everyone else like us,

554
00:36:43,320 --> 00:36:47,240
whether that's men or women or
or personality types or

555
00:36:47,240 --> 00:36:48,840
astrological science or
whatever.

556
00:36:49,040 --> 00:36:52,680
You expect other people to be
operating in the same system.

557
00:36:53,480 --> 00:36:56,400
And the more you can realize
that that's not the case, that

558
00:36:56,440 --> 00:37:01,560
everybody you meet is completely
individual and how they're

559
00:37:01,560 --> 00:37:03,880
seeing the world is not at all
the same.

560
00:37:04,320 --> 00:37:06,200
It's you.
Like whenever I find myself

561
00:37:06,200 --> 00:37:10,120
falling into this trap, I remind
myself that there no two people

562
00:37:10,120 --> 00:37:15,240
see the sky as the same color. 8
billion people on the planet,

563
00:37:15,840 --> 00:37:19,360
there's not two of us that see
the same color.

564
00:37:19,600 --> 00:37:21,960
That's, that's mind boggling,
right?

565
00:37:22,240 --> 00:37:28,960
So talk to the people in your
life who are important to you,

566
00:37:28,960 --> 00:37:32,560
friends, family, significant
others, whatever, even if it's a

567
00:37:32,560 --> 00:37:35,680
same sex relationship.
Yeah, you're both men, but

568
00:37:35,760 --> 00:37:38,280
you're, you know, you're
different.

569
00:37:38,800 --> 00:37:44,320
Sit them down and have a very
clear conversation from a place

570
00:37:44,640 --> 00:37:47,600
of stillness, you know, not from
a place of reactivity.

571
00:37:47,800 --> 00:37:51,320
So if you need to schedule it, I
always give my partners ample

572
00:37:51,320 --> 00:37:53,760
time.
I'm like, hey, I would like to

573
00:37:53,760 --> 00:38:00,120
have a chat with you at 8:00 PM.
So that gives you, you know, X

574
00:38:00,120 --> 00:38:04,560
amount of hours to prepare.
And I'm letting you know it's

575
00:38:05,080 --> 00:38:08,880
not a bad thing so you don't
spend that whole time nervous.

576
00:38:09,200 --> 00:38:11,080
You know, there's, there's no
major problem that we're

577
00:38:11,080 --> 00:38:13,160
addressing.
I just have some things that I'd

578
00:38:13,160 --> 00:38:16,400
like to communicate about.
Give people notice, allow them

579
00:38:16,400 --> 00:38:19,040
to emotionally prepare.
And then when you're in the

580
00:38:19,040 --> 00:38:24,840
conversation, just be like,
here's where I'm at, here's what

581
00:38:24,840 --> 00:38:27,200
I want and need.
And then allow them to give you

582
00:38:27,200 --> 00:38:31,240
feedback because maybe what you
currently think that you want or

583
00:38:31,240 --> 00:38:34,920
need is coming from a place of,
of wounding or defensiveness or

584
00:38:35,200 --> 00:38:38,200
you haven't processed through
something all the way or

585
00:38:38,200 --> 00:38:40,320
whatever.
So allow them to say, well, OK,

586
00:38:40,400 --> 00:38:42,360
I hear you.
But from my perspective, this is

587
00:38:42,360 --> 00:38:44,840
what I see.
And you, you do have a tendency

588
00:38:44,840 --> 00:38:48,040
to do this and that, not in a
judgmental way, just I've

589
00:38:48,040 --> 00:38:49,840
noticed you struggle with this
thing.

590
00:38:50,400 --> 00:38:56,280
And then if they can't live up
to their end of the

591
00:38:56,280 --> 00:38:58,520
relationship, if you're doing
all of this and you're being

592
00:38:58,520 --> 00:39:01,360
very clear and you're telling
people, even if it's your

593
00:39:01,360 --> 00:39:03,920
mother, right, you're telling
people, here's what I want,

594
00:39:03,920 --> 00:39:07,440
here's what I need, here's my
standard of interaction.

595
00:39:07,680 --> 00:39:10,240
And also what do you need?
How can I better serve you?

596
00:39:10,600 --> 00:39:13,600
If they're not willing to meet
you there repeatedly over an

597
00:39:13,600 --> 00:39:15,840
extended period of time, then
you move on.

598
00:39:17,080 --> 00:39:19,200
Doesn't matter who it is, then
you move on.

599
00:39:19,800 --> 00:39:23,320
Don't allow yourself to keep
getting beat up.

600
00:39:23,680 --> 00:39:28,920
And that's something I see so
many married men do is they're

601
00:39:29,680 --> 00:39:34,800
coming to me week after week
explaining how they're being

602
00:39:35,040 --> 00:39:37,080
just beat to shit by their
wives.

603
00:39:37,760 --> 00:39:42,800
And some of my greatest
successes, in my opinion, as as

604
00:39:42,800 --> 00:39:45,360
a healer have been when I've
allowed people to get to the

605
00:39:45,360 --> 00:39:47,400
point where they're willing to
get a divorce.

606
00:39:47,560 --> 00:39:52,320
You know, because I'm like,
she's she's broken in her own

607
00:39:52,320 --> 00:39:54,440
way.
And you and you guys were at the

608
00:39:54,440 --> 00:39:56,880
same level when you met.
You were at the same level of

609
00:39:56,880 --> 00:39:59,560
trauma and codependency and
whatever.

610
00:39:59,560 --> 00:40:02,200
And you wanted it because you
attracted it.

611
00:40:02,240 --> 00:40:05,960
But now you're growing and she's
not going with you.

612
00:40:06,200 --> 00:40:13,120
And in fact, she is defying your
invitation to grow.

613
00:40:13,760 --> 00:40:16,560
That's pretty clear.
Yeah.

614
00:40:17,000 --> 00:40:21,320
You know there's nothing further
you can do unless you physically

615
00:40:21,320 --> 00:40:25,080
drag her, right?
Just let if people want to sit

616
00:40:25,080 --> 00:40:28,920
down and have a little tantrum
about staying in their

617
00:40:28,920 --> 00:40:32,560
limitations, keep walking.
Let let them have their little

618
00:40:32,560 --> 00:40:35,560
tantrum.
Somebody else will come along

619
00:40:36,000 --> 00:40:42,000
who is at the level that they're
at now, and they'll have a

620
00:40:42,000 --> 00:40:45,080
little toxic tango and maybe the
person will choose to change

621
00:40:45,080 --> 00:40:46,560
eventually or maybe they won't,
but that's not your

622
00:40:46,560 --> 00:40:50,040
responsibility.
So looks what's the best way for

623
00:40:50,040 --> 00:40:52,880
people to find out everything
that you're up to and and also

624
00:40:52,880 --> 00:40:56,600
with your charity work too?
I am a bit of a whirlwind of

625
00:40:56,600 --> 00:40:59,120
activity.
I am.

626
00:40:59,240 --> 00:41:02,240
I'm in a constant change state
of flux.

627
00:41:02,240 --> 00:41:08,400
As you said, the healing website
isholisticmagician.com, which is

628
00:41:08,400 --> 00:41:14,560
MAGICKIAN.
My clothing line, which is like

629
00:41:15,920 --> 00:41:24,320
mythical magical clothing is
HOLIM, agi.com, holymagi.com,

630
00:41:24,760 --> 00:41:29,640
all the proceeds from that and
all the proceeds from my decanet

631
00:41:29,760 --> 00:41:34,760
health meals and desserts and
holistic beauty products and

632
00:41:34,760 --> 00:41:37,240
everything.
All all 100% of products go to

633
00:41:37,240 --> 00:41:40,640
support Austin community care,
which was formerly We are loved

634
00:41:40,640 --> 00:41:43,200
for seven years.
We literally just changed the

635
00:41:43,200 --> 00:41:46,720
name and right now we're
focusing on, and we're

636
00:41:46,720 --> 00:41:49,600
transitioning away from doing
boots on the ground weekly

637
00:41:49,600 --> 00:41:53,880
distributions to the homeless
downtown and in encampments.

638
00:41:53,880 --> 00:41:59,080
Because it was, I just got
burned out and I felt like I

639
00:41:59,080 --> 00:42:01,160
wasn't actually making much of a
difference.

640
00:42:01,160 --> 00:42:04,360
It was just a Band-Aid.
So now we're transitioning to

641
00:42:04,360 --> 00:42:08,600
fundraising for some kind of a
structure like a insulated shed

642
00:42:08,600 --> 00:42:12,920
or a converted bust or something
like that, which can host a free

643
00:42:12,920 --> 00:42:18,520
store with supplies for kids of
parents who either living below

644
00:42:18,520 --> 00:42:20,160
the poverty line or or on the
streets.

645
00:42:20,160 --> 00:42:22,960
So the parents will be able to
come and just take diapers or

646
00:42:22,960 --> 00:42:25,200
formula or whatever it is they
need.

647
00:42:25,200 --> 00:42:29,040
And I feel like that's a better
use of my time and energy.

648
00:42:29,120 --> 00:42:34,600
So that's just Austin
communitycare.com and then

649
00:42:34,720 --> 00:42:40,040
either Lux, Vevans or Cosmetera.
On most social media.

650
00:42:40,040 --> 00:42:43,200
I have many names and and many
facets.

651
00:42:43,200 --> 00:42:46,320
I'm a Gemini.
Cool.

652
00:42:46,800 --> 00:42:50,800
You know, I I had a high
expectation of you being

653
00:42:50,800 --> 00:42:54,720
fascinating and intriguing.
And, you know, since we opened

654
00:42:54,720 --> 00:42:57,880
with expectations, I'm like,
yeah, my expectations were were

655
00:42:57,880 --> 00:42:59,920
met and exceeded.
So so thank you.

656
00:43:00,400 --> 00:43:07,880
You are, man, you are such an
icon of being of service and so

657
00:43:07,880 --> 00:43:09,440
many of us really, you know,
through the mystery school,

658
00:43:09,440 --> 00:43:11,800
through your charity work.
It just it seems like it's just

659
00:43:12,520 --> 00:43:15,840
you are a service machine at
times and it's very.

660
00:43:15,840 --> 00:43:16,880
Impressive.
Definitely true.

661
00:43:18,120 --> 00:43:19,080
Well, you're doing more than
trying.

662
00:43:19,920 --> 00:43:24,720
You're doing it this new Yoda.
Right, so.

663
00:43:24,720 --> 00:43:26,720
Let's, I want to, I want to
thank you again for joining us

664
00:43:26,720 --> 00:43:28,400
today.
Thanks for joining us everyone.

665
00:43:28,640 --> 00:43:31,480
Please visit realmenfield.org
and see the blog post for this

666
00:43:31,480 --> 00:43:33,960
episode, which will have all the
various links and resources

667
00:43:33,960 --> 00:43:36,360
discussed.
Plus, I'll post in its entirety

668
00:43:36,560 --> 00:43:39,080
Lux's original Facebook post
that got my attention.

669
00:43:39,720 --> 00:43:42,160
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670
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