Never Give Up | It Does Get Better

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Hello and welcome to real men.
Feel, this is your host, Andy

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Grant.
I'm also an author coach and

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healer.
You can visit v&e Grant.com to

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learn more about that.
Last November 20 21, I stopped

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doing pretty much all positive
things in my life.

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I consciously chose to dive
straight into my own depression

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Solitude and misery.
I stopped doing this podcast.

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I stopped bleeding men's groups.
I stopped being open to new

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coaching clients.
I stopped exercising, I stopped

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paying attention to what I ate.
I stopped every positive daily

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ritual that I've developed over
the years.

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I did not buy a single gift last
Christmas.

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And last December the week
before Christmas.

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I took a trip to San Francisco
for Metallica's 40th

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anniversary.
Now I had bought the tickets six

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months prior when I was actually
excited to go to the show to be

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alive but as the concert rolled
around, I had no interest in

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going and I would have just said
fuck it and stay home if not for

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the friend who was going to meet
me there and who's tickets I had

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That was really an early clue as
to what mattered it, what my

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path out of.
My darkness might be, but I'll

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come back to that.
Now the exact circumstances of

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what started this dark period
for me Isn't important because

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there's always something that we
can focus on to our detriment.

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You know this life can be Heaven
or Hell, really comes down to

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us.
Me, you my Outlook, my

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perception, my thinking, and my
judgments and actions.

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I took minimal action for
months.

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I wanted to share this with you
to remind you and to remind

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myself, where I was a year ago
because of the rapid change

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resilience, support, and
positive energy, that is

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available to all of us.
But not until we are willing to

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accept it.
Only seven months ago.

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I attempted to buy euthanasia
drugs online.

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Now today that that sounds like
a bad joke to me.

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I really can't imagine going
that far but I did There's a

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phrase.
I first heard in AA.

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I was sick and tired of feeling
sick and tired.

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So once I decided that enough
was enough for depression and

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hiding out, I started to say yes
to the offers of help.

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I started saying yes to helping
others, as well to being of

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service to better, self-care the
ultimate service.

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In July, I started weekly
therapy.

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I began monthly energy, healing
sessions.

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I got active in a new men's
group as a participant.

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Not as a leader, I began daily
exercise.

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Again, did an outstanding diet
program called wild fit.

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I took part in my first
fundraising campaign, the

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Covenant House, sleep out, which
was the prior episode of real

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men field.
Back to that, December trip to

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California to see, Metallica
that I just didn't give a shit

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about any more.
I went because I had promised a

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friend that I'd be there.
I was more concerned for him

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than myself and sometimes that's
a good thing.

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Whenever you find yourself
feeling like absolute shit.

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If you are under siege by your
own thoughts saying that you

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should check out of life early.
Do something for somebody else.

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Make some sort of effort to be
of service to another human

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being.
I find that always changes my

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mood and my Outlook Today, I'm
stronger fitter, healthier more

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grateful, and happier than ever.
I love my work.

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My job, my client, my guests, my
listeners, my future, my

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present.
I've lost all but five pounds of

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all the weight that I gained, in
my months of self-loathing, I'm

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going to start Brazilian
Jiu-Jitsu in the New Year.

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I'm planning a trip to London
and and all good things cycle

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right back to Metallica for me
as this.

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Week I excitedly, but tickets
for their world tour.

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I've got shows in 2023 and 2024
Life is good.

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You are good.
Please allow the truth of that

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to sink in.
If you need some daily reminders

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to be of service to share
yourself and better your mood.

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I recently discovered do good,
December a monthly calendar of

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simple things you can do to
spread love and kindness.

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I've posted it to the real men
feel Facebook page and Instagram

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page.
I'll make sure it's part of

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this.
Episode's post on room and feel

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that org.
So if you want to track it down,

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go there.
Forever, you are discovering

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real men, feel please, like
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share.
And until next time be good to

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yourself by being good, to
others.

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Be well.
Be well.