Unleashing Your Soulful Power | The Power of Choice

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Hello and welcome to real men
field.

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I am your host author coach and
healer Indy Grant.

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Please visit v&e great.com to
learn more about that room and

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feel exist to remind men that
they are human beings and they

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have the right to experience and
express all of their emotions.

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We have the conversations that
most men aren't having but that

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all men can benefit from while
2023 is still a very fresh year.

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I'm reminded of the opening of A
Tale of Two Cities.

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It was the best of times.
It was the worst of times it was

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Was the age of wisdom, it was
the age of foolishness.

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It was the epoch of belief, it
was the epoch of incredulity.

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It was the season of light.
It was the season of Darkness.

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It was the spring of hope.
It was the winter of Despair.

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We had everything before us.
We had nothing before us.

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We were all going direct to
heaven and were all going direct

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the other way.
Now to me that can describe

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today, as well as when it was
written in 1859.

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So I found myself wondering, you
know, how might someone step?

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To serve the light to, to add to
the wisdom, to create the best

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of times.
My guest today is Christian

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Delaware.
Te with 30 years of experience,

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Christian is a sought-after
spiritual teacher, personal

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transformation coach, and
leading voice in the breathwork

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community.
He has traveled the world

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offering inspiring and
transformative for treats,

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combining psychological and
spiritual teachings, with

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lasting and life-changing
effects.

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His newest book, his newest
book, Awakening the soul of

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power has won multiple Awards
and was Bye.

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Grammy Award winner Gloria
Estefan as a balm for the soul

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of anyone searching for truth
and answers to Life's difficult

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questions.
Welcome to real Midfield

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Christian and they thanks so
much.

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Thanks for having me and wow.
What a beautiful reading you

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started as out with?
Yeah, I think everyone

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remembers, you know, best of
times.

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The worst of times I went to
look it up and make sure I'm

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like, oh, there's a whole
wonderful paragraph but you

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know, since high school, I've
forgotten.

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Yeah, me too me too.
I've forgotten what a beautiful

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way.
That's that begins.

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Yeah, and I feel like Again at
the dawn of a new year, probably

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every year is like that, you
have the opportunity to go both

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ways for the for the best or the
worst to see the like to see the

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darkness and what I really like
about your work and your message

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is that call to make the choice
to decide for yourself to to add

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value, to the world, to be a
hero to the world or not.

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Is that is that accurate?
Yeah, you know it's like it's

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that you reading resonated so
much with me because I do

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believe that we're in those kind
of really critical times, I

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believe we're like Make It or
Break It times.

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The planet will be fine and
might take several million years

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but life will continue.
The planet will find homeostasis

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again, Consciousness will
continue evolving, who knows?

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Maybe it turns out to be an
enlightened cockroach Planet.

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Whether we make it, that's what
we're beginning to face.

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We're just now beginning.
Getting to witness and to

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experience, whatever it is that
we have Unleashed on the

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environment of which covid is a
symptom of our relationship to

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Nature.
So, if anybody watching this has

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the slightest inkling, that the
slightest suspicion that they

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have features as healers as
activists and promoters of

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change.
This is it?

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This is the time that we've been
waiting for.

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Yeah, cool.
And so, you write a lot and

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speak a lot about Is no power
and heroism, heroism.

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Have you always felt that that
sense of your own heroic self?

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Oh my God, are you kidding me?
I struggled with owning you know

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that word hero or even owning
the word, a teacher.

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My adolescence was one long
depression I know self-doubt, in

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fact, I know self-hatred and I
also know how you can get out of

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it, right?
Because that's flash-forward.

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Today I no matter what doesn't
whether a project succeeds or

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fails and quotes, never ever.
Ever do.

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I question my sense of self.
My self-worth is unshakeable and

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and so I know that, that, that
can happen to me.

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It can happen in anybody.
And that's part of what those my

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work is about is helping people
to that level of empowerment and

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freedom.
So you mentioned your child was,

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was just really a long
depression and I know Your, you

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don't have a traditional
childhood so tell me tell me a

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bit about your upbringing.
I was born in Cuba and I lived,

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you know, and a Communist Regime
for the first 10 years of my

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life.
And so I always kind of felt

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like the outsider.
I don't like something like,

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like, I didn't belong when we
came to this state, we lived in

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Georgia, the rural Georgia the
Milledgeville Georgia for the

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first three years.
And I didn't speak a word of

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English.
So really, you know, felt

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different really never felt that
I belong there, either.

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And an about a minute that your
family applied for a visa to

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emigrate to leave.
You were labeled gusano which

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means warm bike, even by the
teachers in, you know, first

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second, third grade.
And then once had finally

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learned English and had this
Great Southern accent, we move

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back to Miami were, you know,
went to a Jesuit High School,

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that was 90, probably 95%
cuban-american.

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So I stood out again all over
Because I sounded like a Georgia

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Peach.
So yeah, I think that that theme

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of feeling different of feeling
like the other has been

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prevalent in me all my life and
challenging for sure going up

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and there's a lot of, you know,
wisdom and value that comes from

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that from from feeling different
from not belonging to me though

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it's all of it was part of what
helped me become who I I am

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today.
So today, how would you define

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heroism?
You know, that's, that's how I

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start the book because like me,
I know many people struggle with

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the word heroism.
In fact, I had a couple of

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publishing, you know, writing
Consultants is that.

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No, don't don't put that word
because people don't know what

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to do with that.
And the reason for that is is

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because we it's really easy for
us to project that outside and

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to honor, you know, heroism in
somebody else like a like a

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warrior first.
Van Der, you know, and even EMT

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fire firefighters, the pandemic
I think helped us to expand that

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a little bit.
So now most of us I think would

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include our Healthcare
practitioners or doctors or

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nurses or respiratory therapist
or really Place their lives at

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risk and I would even include in
their grocery store clerks on

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delivery, people who had in the
worst of it made a lot of

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sacrifices to keep that the rest
of us fat and provided for it.

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Taking care of and then the
question becomes, well, what

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about the rest of us?
And so, what I write in the in

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this book, it's like ways of
living that are nothing less

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than heroic.
So, so, for example, it's really

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easy to react and and big.
When somebody says or does

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something that we interpreted as
painful and to get them back and

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say, something back to them or
take revenge on them, anybody

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can do that too.
To take a pause to take a deep

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breath to feel that ouch and
choose otherwise like, actually

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just bringing Choice back into
the equation to me, as heroic,

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you know, to Splatter somebody
against the wall, anybody can do

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that to take the high road.
So it's a different story here

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to have to walk around rather
than to be willing to dive deep

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inside.
And to face or inner demons are

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our shadow stuff rather than
going through life.

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You know, just numbing out like
most of us do and and

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self-medicating with substances
and food and sex and gaming, and

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social media and workaholism.
And all of the ways in which we

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are.
So creatively numb out and run

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away from our feelings like,
like you're like your podcast

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often talks about to be willing
to To do that is to learn how to

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feel.
Like if you would have asked me

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30 years ago, you know what I
was feeling, I had no idea I

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couldn't tell you because I had
no idea and so to, you know,

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we've got this whole
misunderstanding that to feel is

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weakness.
And I think it's the other way

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around to look to know what
we're feeling and to learn how

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to communicate those feelings
responsibly like owning that

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there are feelings and nobody
can make us feel anything. 2 & 2

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in a way with courage, because
it's always going to take

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courage to communicate that
compassion in the moment.

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And, and communicate them
gracefully meaning in a way that

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the other person can hear it,
not just dumping them like, a

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two-year-old, and pointing the
finger and blaming them, which

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is only going to cause a
shutdown on the other side, to

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me, that's nothing short of
heroic.

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Yep.
I agree.

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And I love that you said, you
know, going inward because I

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certainly didn't realize this
while I was growing up, but I've

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come to really realize an
experience that the my greatest

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fears are in me.
Like, it was easier to blame and

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look around and but that's the
easy stuff.

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But yeah, it took a shitload of
Courage, typically to look at my

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own personal darkness, and why
am I so depressed?

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And why do I think I'm better
off dead?

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And it's all in us and our are
darker Center.

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Light is in us and our heroic
ISM and our Item is it's all

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inside of us and that's why I
love all you saying that her

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heroism is really pausing and
making that choice.

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Yes.
Because we all do have that

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power to choose, always always,
and to the intermediate also

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heroic, just to pop ourselves
out of that old and boring react

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and regret cycle.
Right?

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Because we react as somebody
got, uh, somebody said something

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that was hurtful and so we get
them back but what happens, you

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know, though, the the adrenaline
does It's again, our letter was

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like later, we're like, oh my
God, I can't believe I said

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that.
That was so mean I did.

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That's not what I really wanted
to say and we cause harm to

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other people into our
relationships and ultimately we

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don't really want to be that
way, but it's the way that we've

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been conditioned and it's kind
of what happens where as you

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know, when we suppress your
emotions, what used to be

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spiritual teaching.
That, that everything is energy.

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Now, we know from quantum
physics, it's all energy.

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That includes the body.
That includes the emotions.

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We know from physics to that
energy cannot be destroyed.

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So all those times those
countless times that we have

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stuffed our emotions that we
have suppressed them because we

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didn't, we didn't feel safe
because little boys, don't cry

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because we didn't want to be
perceived as weakness, because

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we didn't want to rock the boat
too much.

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And so, we wanted to maintain
that illusion of peace.

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That stuff doesn't go away.
It gets it gets lodged in the

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tissues of the body.
And what happens is that After

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years and Decades of
suppressing, emotions of the

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lifetime.
In some of our cases, we walk

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around with layers and layers
and layers of repressed.

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Emotional crap, and unhealed
past trauma.

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Which would then start
projecting, we're trying to have

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a relationship in the present
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In all of it is getting filtered
through all that and he'll

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stuff.
Like to me, it's amazing.

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It's mind-boggling that any
relationships can work because

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we haven't been taught, like,
how to hold them, how to

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approach him.
And we haven't been taught about

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During our stuff so that we
stopped, you know throwing it on

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each other's lap and yeah, go
ahead.

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I often say that yeah every
emotion will be felt and if it's

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something we stuff it's got to
come out sideways and distorted

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and in response to something
that has nothing to do with the

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original trauma incident.
Whatever, that feeling was yet,

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you decided you decided to
suppress, so, right?

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And and especially for guys, you
know, because you know what, I

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think is that I get into the
book is have a chapter that that

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all about what it means to be a
man.

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In the 21st century because this
conflicted and build that

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relationship.
We've had with power for the

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several units, thousand years of
the patriarchy which is more

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power about hierarchy about my
way or the highway Cowboy

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mentality.
You know power over power

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related to fear fourth
domination control.

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I'm going to push you down and
step on you.

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In order for me to feel powerful
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Feminine.
Have have have paid a price for

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that.
The feminine energies have have

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paid a price for that, but so
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And so do men still like the to
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That's one of the reasons why
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different, like in the US, women
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globally, by seven years.
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reason for that is because we've
got this mistaken idea of what

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it means to be a man.
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there's uncaring unfeeling.
IRobot, and those energies have

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to come out, one way or the
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So they start showing up as
physical symptoms, as illness

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disease cancer, heart attacks
all sir.

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And and it's part of the reason
why we're so unhappy too because

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it's such a limited and limiting
perspective and of what it means

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to be a man.
So what, what is the healthiest

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most fulfilling way to express
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Hmm, that's a great question.
That's, that's part of what.

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I, what I did in that chapter
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traditional ways in which, you
know, which we associate as

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traditional male roles and, and
kind of update them redefine

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them for the 21st century.
So, let's look at the one of

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them.
The provider it was It's such a

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part of the identity for so many
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You know, I'm the one who brings
home the bacon.

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But if we look at the numbers, I
think the last numbers that I

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have of her 2017, I need to get
the more recent figures but in

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2017 in forty percent of
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US, the woman is it has higher
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the man.
And 50% more than 50% of college

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graduates are now women.
So we can see which way this is

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going for by men were being
replaced by Robotics and

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computers and out sourced by,
you know, to Global it by

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globalization.
And so no wonder that so many

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men are having an identity
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Know if I'm not the provider
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And so no wonder that.
So there's so many men who are

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having a crisis right now, I
think that I was reading the

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couple of days ago eight million
men in the US have just given

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up, they're not even trying to
define a job when they're plenty

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of jobs available to be had and
and no wonder that so many men

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are wanting to go back to the
way that it was in the 50s is

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idealized version of of life in
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like I look at that as like what
about a different way of what it

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means to provide like that's it,
are we really going to Fine

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ourselves as a man by the size
of our paycheck.

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It's like, wow, that's really
limiting if that's what you

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think of yourself and your role
in who you are as a human being,

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that's by by the size of your
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Yikes.
But so many of us do.

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And so, so for example, another
way that we can express that.

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What about big providing for
your family, for your household,

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for your loved ones, a safe
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psychologically emotionally,
safe word, Where everybody can

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just Blossom and you know that
that that role as The Rock and

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that out that's going to always
going to have your back and then

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all of our kids, our family can
just Blossom and explore with

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who they are and and that is
priceless to be able to have

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that is priceless infinitely
more valuable than the size of

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the contribution of a paycheck,
right?

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And they pointed out because I
have never met anyone that talks

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about Their experiences as a
child and their dad like, oh

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yeah, payday was the favorite
need.

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Show us his check and we all
celebrated, but it's all about,

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you know, being a provider of
love, and joy.

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And that's what makes the
positive memories and yes, it

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tight family, and, and can
change the world for the better.

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Exactly, exactly.
Well, the Explorer, you know,

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it's another traditional role of
that men have played as the

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Explorer, and at least on this
little planet, we're running.

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Running out of space, has two
places to explore less.

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You go deep deep, deep into the
ocean or far into outer space.

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But what about exploring
yourself in?

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What about what you were just
talking about the, you know,

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being willing to die, then an
Explorer like to have to face

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our shadow, to face our fears
face or inner demons that is

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heroic.
That is the stuff of Heroes.

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And let me know if you're seeing
this, I'm seeing more men doing

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that and younger and Younger.
Like the the yes the newest

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generation seem willing to dive
in at much earlier ages and then

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I really gives me hope for
everything so you speak about

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Soulful power often.
So could you define Soulful

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power?
Yeah, and let me zoom out a

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little bit to talk a little bit
about talk a little bit more

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about to set the context for it.
I think most of us have an

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ambivalent, and I would even say
conflicted relationship to power

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part of us wants it part of us
is afraid of it.

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And I think, you know, the more
that I dive into this and

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Retreats and with coaching
clients, I think what we fear

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that if we really stepped into
our power, into all of who we

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are, that other people might not
be able to accept to do handle

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it and that we might end up
rejected alone and who wants

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that?
I think we also fear that we

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might abuse it and no wonder how
many times throughout our lives.

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Have we witnessed and
experienced abuses of power.

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And then on top of that we've
been corrupted we've been Stand

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conditioned to believe that
powers bad that power corrupts.

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Absolute power corrupts,
absolutely and what good-hearted

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person wants to be corrupted.
So when you add to the mix, the

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fact that we have also been
conditioned that the emotions

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and feelings are bad and
weakness.

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We hate conflict.
We avoid confrontation.

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What happens is that we end up
giving away our power.

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We end up selling out on our our
innate Inherent power that

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nobody can give to us.
Nobody can take away.

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We are the only ones who give it
away.

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And what I find most tragic
about that is the reasons for

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which we give it away.
So how many times have we said?

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Yes, when inside, we really feel
no like inside, it's really not.

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Okay.
With us, but we settle for that.

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Illusion of Peace for an
illusion of acceptance, a false

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sense of security and and we
settle for morsels crumbs.

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Of pseudo love.
So I don't think it's a very

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healthy and effective strategy
to give away our power.

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So part of the part of the
journey than to beginning to

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reclaim our power is realizing
that there's different types.

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So I talked about worldly power,
the way that the world relates

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to power or EGO power the way
that that ego part of us,

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expresses power in the world
which is that more that

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hierarchical power over
approach.

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Which and I can contrast that to
soulful power, which is to me,

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call it spiritual power, in our
power, authentic power, whatever

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you want to call it.
It's so there are key

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differences.
So, for example, a few of them

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worldly power is all about
externals.

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So we tend to associate power
with people who have money,

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Fame, who are high up in some
kind of hierarchy, whether it's

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the corporate ladder or some
other kind of structure to think

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about all those kinds of Power.
Is that because they're outside

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of us?
They're fickle here.

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Today, gone tomorrow.
So contract contrasting, that

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with the inner power, which like
I was saying before, is like,

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it's there nobody.
Nobody can give it to us.

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And we are the only ones who
give it away.

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Nobody can really take it away
from us.

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The worldly power is all about
agenda, so it's always trying to

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get something for itself and
it's always going to prove how

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big and powerful it is.
So it's all about facades and

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being perceived as whereas
Soulful power.

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It's humble, like, it doesn't
need to prove anything to

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anybody.
It knows that the how much power

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it has.
And it doesn't need to doesn't

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need validation by anybody, it's
internally referenced internally

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validated.
So, I think about Gandhi or

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Gandalf, if you, if you're until
the Lord of the Rings in their

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simple monastic, robes, their
sandaled feet from looking at

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him.
You'd never know how much power

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they hold but when it's Needed,
get out of the way if we think

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about it, Gandhi, brought the
British Empire to its knees.

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When it was at its highest point
in terms of global inflows and

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Global reach without ever
shooting a gun or Landing a

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single punch that's power.
And we all have access to that

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Beyond taking an Empire down.
What what are more practical

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realistic you know?
Down-to-earth your individual

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What are some examples of being
in that Soulful power place?

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Oh my God.
You it's what?

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I was just saying before like
not needing getting to that

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place where you no longer need
anyone's approval or validation,

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that that's powerful.
That's having your being in your

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personal agency.
Self-sufficiency, not that you,

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we don't have other
relationships that are deeply

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meaningful, but we're not
needing anybody's approval of

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validation, which is incredibly
empowering.

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You to be able to navigate power
struggles.

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I said, rather than the way that
we most of us have done it,

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which is all of this stuff gets
subconscious.

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We're projecting on each other,
all of our self, doubts and not

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feeling good enough.
The I'm not worthy but we don't

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want to face that stuff.
So we overcompensate for those

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things because they're too
uncomfortable to look at.

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And so then we get caught up in
EGO egoic power struggles.

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Like, you know, I say this you
say that I said, You said are

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booming, Just One of Us explodes
and then we cause harm to our

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relationships.
So by understanding, by being

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willing, to go inside and
understand why we do the things

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we do, what are our triggers?
What are our patterns?

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Why do certain people trigger me
where certain type of

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relationships?
Trigger, me and Trigger my mud,

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my self-doubt, or my
insecurities by being willing to

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do that, we can do something
about it because we can't do

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anything about what.
We can't see.

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And and one As we begin to do
that healing work.

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And that work of realizing he's
like, wait a minute.

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All those feelings of not
feeling, good of an adequacy

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that there's something wrong
with me.

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They're just misunderstandings
of a young mind that didn't know

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any better incredibly empowering
incredibly liberating.

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And then, you know, we have
relationships that work better

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because we can stand in our
power, not threatened by anybody

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else's power.
So we don't have to get it stuck

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in those in those power.
Rules with very healthy

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boundaries, very clear
boundaries.

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We know what works for us, what
doesn't work for us.

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If we need to we take a stand
for ourselves but we don't have

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to walk around with those those
those layers and layers of

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armor.
That may have served at some

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point in our lives.
But now they're just keeping

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those in that prison and we walk
around especially as guys like

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in his huge arms thinking that
that that's powerful, that's not

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powerful.
That's prison.

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All right, we walk around in
Defcon 1, just waiting for the

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next shoe to drop waiting for
the next attack sometimes,

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sneaking in the first punch,
just in case that what a way to

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live, right?
If we think about it, this

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relationship to life.
It's much more powerful because

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I'm coming from a place that I
know that.

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Hey, life, Come at me.
Whatever you throw at me.

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I got this right.
So they got, this is resilience

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and bravery and the courage to
go within.

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So, yes.
Is there any ideal first step to

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help someone make that, that
start to make that switch from

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the egoic power to more in touch
with their soul?

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Yeah, I mean we're doing it
right now.

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First part is understanding that
you know what we've been doing

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in our misunderstandings so it
and it's to go back to what

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we're talking about earlier, go
within.

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That's the first step.
Being self-aware because again,

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we can't do anything if we're
not aware of what we're doing.

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So figuring out why we do the
things.

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We do, see ya with without
awareness, nothing can change.

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So that, whenever whenever
effect with clients and they

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realize, oh, I did that in like,
oh, celebrate that you noticed,

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something in the past, you were
just unconsciously doing those

449
00:26:16,200 --> 00:26:17,500
things.
That now you don't like.

450
00:26:17,500 --> 00:26:21,300
So that's, that's a win.
It's a total win is definite

451
00:26:21,300 --> 00:26:26,400
progress and in your own
experience.

452
00:26:27,300 --> 00:26:30,000
Was this that whether the
journaling meditation like, what

453
00:26:30,000 --> 00:26:33,600
helped you go within when you
first realize something,

454
00:26:33,600 --> 00:26:36,000
something's off and I want to do
something about it.

455
00:26:36,800 --> 00:26:43,700
Well, I've always been kind of
introspective more of an

456
00:26:43,700 --> 00:26:46,500
introvert, which, you know,
there's there's a book called

457
00:26:46,500 --> 00:26:49,800
The introvert advantage.
And from current perspective, I

458
00:26:49,800 --> 00:26:56,000
see that now because I was
asking, you know, difficult

459
00:26:56,000 --> 00:26:59,200
challenging About myself at an
early age.

460
00:27:00,000 --> 00:27:04,000
So I kind of had a head start
and that area in terms of

461
00:27:04,000 --> 00:27:07,400
practices, the one that really
changed, my life was breath,

462
00:27:07,400 --> 00:27:10,200
work.
And we don't have time to really

463
00:27:10,200 --> 00:27:12,700
get into breathwork here.
It's a, it's a, it's a large

464
00:27:12,700 --> 00:27:15,300
umbrella term, there's deep
breathing practices and

465
00:27:15,300 --> 00:27:17,900
breathing breathing techniques
that have a lot of benefits.

466
00:27:18,500 --> 00:27:20,700
The type of breath work that I'm
doing is you breathe in a

467
00:27:20,708 --> 00:27:24,700
certain way, just circular
connected way for about an hour,

468
00:27:24,700 --> 00:27:27,000
an hour and a half and I'm
amazing shit.

469
00:27:27,100 --> 00:27:30,300
Happens in my dad was a
psychiatrist.

470
00:27:30,400 --> 00:27:34,600
My degrees in Psychology.
I was gonna I was on a track to

471
00:27:34,600 --> 00:27:37,700
get a PhD in Psychology.
And when I discovered breath

472
00:27:37,700 --> 00:27:41,800
work, after my first session, I
jump tracks, I never went for

473
00:27:41,800 --> 00:27:47,100
the PHD, because it works so
fast and heals so profoundly in

474
00:27:47,100 --> 00:27:52,100
so many ways. 30 years later,
I've yet to come across anything

475
00:27:52,100 --> 00:27:56,600
that, that heals past trauma as
effectively, and as quickly.

476
00:27:56,600 --> 00:28:01,100
And in, Many levels.
Yeah, I think nine times I've

477
00:28:01,100 --> 00:28:02,900
done holotropic breathwork.
Hmm.

478
00:28:02,900 --> 00:28:05,100
Which very similar if not the
exact thing your time about do

479
00:28:05,100 --> 00:28:08,400
is 90 minutes to two hour long.
And yeah, the first time I did

480
00:28:08,400 --> 00:28:12,100
it, I was just completely blown
away and it was the, it was the

481
00:28:12,108 --> 00:28:15,600
first time.
So I've attempted suicide

482
00:28:15,600 --> 00:28:18,100
multiple times and his breath
work session.

483
00:28:18,900 --> 00:28:21,000
I finally mourned it.
Hmm.

484
00:28:21,000 --> 00:28:24,300
Like I was in tears, I like
mourned and recognized that I

485
00:28:24,300 --> 00:28:28,300
had survived attempted murder
and then I was the attempting to

486
00:28:28,300 --> 00:28:31,500
murder myself.
And the next day I sent a

487
00:28:31,508 --> 00:28:34,700
bouquet of flowers, a bouquet of
roses to my mother and to my

488
00:28:34,700 --> 00:28:39,400
father and to myself as just
nothing something some sort of

489
00:28:39,400 --> 00:28:41,900
action in but is like that's
really started and I couldn't

490
00:28:41,900 --> 00:28:46,400
more knit and I could grieve it.
And in the breadth of experience

491
00:28:46,400 --> 00:28:50,400
I was I was tasting the highs of
life and just having an amazing

492
00:28:50,400 --> 00:28:52,000
time.
And then they would crash

493
00:28:52,000 --> 00:28:53,700
because I tried to throw this
away.

494
00:28:54,100 --> 00:28:57,000
Like, it was just up and it was
the most, by Pollux means ever

495
00:28:57,000 --> 00:28:59,300
had.
But it was also incredibly Ling.

496
00:28:59,300 --> 00:29:03,000
And yeah, funded.
This are each of our own inner

497
00:29:03,000 --> 00:29:06,900
healer in her wisdom, comes out,
and breath work somehow, and,

498
00:29:06,900 --> 00:29:10,600
and Susan the heels.
So, yeah, it's amazing how it

499
00:29:10,600 --> 00:29:12,000
works.
And thank you, by the way, for

500
00:29:12,000 --> 00:29:17,400
so much for sharing that.
It's so moving that Visual and I

501
00:29:17,408 --> 00:29:21,400
was so, sorry, that day, I
totally relate, I never tried,

502
00:29:21,400 --> 00:29:25,400
but I certainly had the fantasy
throughout my entire

503
00:29:25,400 --> 00:29:28,700
adolescence.
So I my heart goes out to you

504
00:29:28,700 --> 00:29:33,900
and And celebrate with you that
you breathed your way out of

505
00:29:33,900 --> 00:29:36,400
that.
And it is only one big thing

506
00:29:36,400 --> 00:29:39,700
about awareness.
Once I was willing to be wrong

507
00:29:39,700 --> 00:29:41,200
about everything.
I thought was right.

508
00:29:42,100 --> 00:29:44,800
That's what open a door for me.
Yeah, so it was yeah, and so

509
00:29:44,800 --> 00:29:46,800
many men, like it's more
important to be right than be

510
00:29:46,800 --> 00:29:49,100
happy.
And we, that's totally reversed

511
00:29:49,900 --> 00:29:52,400
which, by the way, goes back to
the ego, that's one of the

512
00:29:53,300 --> 00:29:55,600
functions of the egos.
One of the shenanigans of the

513
00:29:55,600 --> 00:29:58,600
egos, did it thinks that it's
right, always.

514
00:29:59,100 --> 00:30:01,800
And in like you're pointing to
is like even if we are right who

515
00:30:01,800 --> 00:30:06,100
cares like said we so much of
our identity is tied into beer

516
00:30:06,100 --> 00:30:07,900
being right is like what is
that?

517
00:30:09,100 --> 00:30:11,300
What is that?
To me, that's part of that

518
00:30:11,300 --> 00:30:14,200
symptom of overcompensating
Because deep deep deep down

519
00:30:14,200 --> 00:30:15,600
inside, we don't feel good
enough.

520
00:30:15,900 --> 00:30:20,500
So we attach on, hold on to more
superficial expressions like

521
00:30:20,500 --> 00:30:22,500
being, right?
And that's going to give me

522
00:30:22,500 --> 00:30:23,900
meaning.
And then when somebody

523
00:30:23,900 --> 00:30:27,300
challenges that that I take it
as a challenge to the to my very

524
00:30:27,300 --> 00:30:29,500
Foundation of my deepest
identity.

525
00:30:29,700 --> 00:30:32,800
It's like no man you just it's
okay to be wrong once in a

526
00:30:32,800 --> 00:30:35,300
while.
There's I mean anything about

527
00:30:35,300 --> 00:30:40,400
you so again kind of mixed up in
all of Of this, this notion of

528
00:30:40,400 --> 00:30:43,000
mass and want to be, right?
And when we first spoke, you

529
00:30:43,000 --> 00:30:47,300
would shared an experience of
self-sabotage in high school and

530
00:30:47,300 --> 00:30:49,200
I had done very similar the same
thing.

531
00:30:49,200 --> 00:30:51,400
So might you tell us a little
bit about that.

532
00:30:52,000 --> 00:30:54,500
Yeah.
You know, one of the things

533
00:30:54,500 --> 00:30:59,600
about being an introvert was
that I was a good student and

534
00:31:00,200 --> 00:31:02,500
especially coming to a different
country, a country, which I

535
00:31:02,508 --> 00:31:06,600
didn't speak the language.
I and haven't been raised in

536
00:31:06,600 --> 00:31:09,900
Cuba where we had a TV but there
was nothing worth Watching I

537
00:31:09,900 --> 00:31:14,300
grew up reading.
So I had a Annie's with learning

538
00:31:15,300 --> 00:31:19,300
had a propensity for learning so
I had a 4.0 in high school

539
00:31:19,300 --> 00:31:22,800
except for one be my last
semester.

540
00:31:25,200 --> 00:31:28,200
I know that was the next-to-last
up some of the semester and as a

541
00:31:28,200 --> 00:31:32,800
senior and I didn't set out to
do this consciously, but looking

542
00:31:32,800 --> 00:31:37,100
back on it, I know I don't have
the slightest doubt that I

543
00:31:37,100 --> 00:31:39,800
sabotage my GPA because it was a
self guided study.

544
00:31:39,800 --> 00:31:43,600
All had to do is read a book and
do a book report which I've done

545
00:31:43,600 --> 00:31:47,400
a ton of but I turned it in late
and that was enough for me to

546
00:31:47,400 --> 00:31:50,600
get a b instead of an A and that
was enough for me to get to

547
00:31:50,600 --> 00:31:53,300
knock me out of the running, to
be the valedictorian because

548
00:31:53,300 --> 00:31:58,100
there is No, freaking way that I
could have gotten up then in

549
00:31:58,100 --> 00:32:00,500
front of an auditorium filled
with hundreds and hundreds of

550
00:32:00,500 --> 00:32:02,500
people and speak.
There's no way.

551
00:32:03,200 --> 00:32:06,100
No way I could have done that
and Flash Forward, you know.

552
00:32:06,100 --> 00:32:08,300
Now I speak all over the world.
Yeah.

553
00:32:08,300 --> 00:32:12,500
Speaking of dozens and dozens of
universities and conferences and

554
00:32:13,200 --> 00:32:16,500
on the tedx stage.
So I know from personal

555
00:32:16,500 --> 00:32:21,100
experience in my cells at all
this stuff, all these fears that

556
00:32:21,100 --> 00:32:24,100
we have allowed to hold those
back, that all can be healed.

557
00:32:24,300 --> 00:32:27,800
All can be transcended.
Yeah, yeah, fact that the things

558
00:32:27,800 --> 00:32:31,900
that I've been most fearful of
and terrified of the longest are

559
00:32:31,900 --> 00:32:35,800
the things I need to do and then
just make life better.

560
00:32:35,800 --> 00:32:40,700
And I used to I dropped out of
college to avoid a mandatory

561
00:32:40,700 --> 00:32:43,700
public speaking class.
I just stopped stopped going

562
00:32:43,700 --> 00:32:46,600
went from, he's two F's and was
incomplete and kicked out was

563
00:32:46,600 --> 00:32:48,300
like oh thank God as all to
avoid a class.

564
00:32:48,300 --> 00:32:52,300
That was afraid of and in high
school, Midway through senior

565
00:32:52,300 --> 00:32:55,400
year, the class rankings came
out Out and I was third in my

566
00:32:55,400 --> 00:32:58,200
class was like, what the fuck,
how can this be?

567
00:32:58,200 --> 00:33:00,700
Like I was I was in the advanced
classes but I was not trying

568
00:33:00,700 --> 00:33:02,600
their other ones trying to get
valid to him, trying to do this

569
00:33:02,600 --> 00:33:05,800
and doing things for the college
applications and I was depressed

570
00:33:05,800 --> 00:33:09,500
and miserable and I didn't
realize till later how afraid I

571
00:33:09,500 --> 00:33:12,700
was.
So I was afraid to go to college

572
00:33:12,700 --> 00:33:15,400
and be discovered as a fraud.
I thought I was ranked third in

573
00:33:15,408 --> 00:33:19,300
my class because I was just the
chief idiot in a sea of morons

574
00:33:19,500 --> 00:33:22,600
and I do just, that was it.
I was just like the third-ranked

575
00:33:22,600 --> 00:33:25,500
of of this town of idiots.
That's How I see it again.

576
00:33:25,800 --> 00:33:28,700
Blame everybody else because I
couldn't accept what, you know

577
00:33:28,700 --> 00:33:31,100
what I thought of myself, well,
right.

578
00:33:31,100 --> 00:33:35,200
But that's, yeah, I consciously
tried to flunk out of high

579
00:33:35,200 --> 00:33:37,700
school, so, I would not
graduate, that's amazing,

580
00:33:37,800 --> 00:33:40,500
amazing.
The things we do, and most of it

581
00:33:41,000 --> 00:33:45,400
not even consciously at to me,
that the saddest part, I didn't

582
00:33:45,400 --> 00:33:48,200
do this, I didn't set out to do
this, and you didn't set out to

583
00:33:48,200 --> 00:33:50,100
do this.
We were just being driven by

584
00:33:50,500 --> 00:33:53,100
Under the surface.
We weren't even aware of the

585
00:33:53,100 --> 00:33:57,400
deep-seated.
Deep-rooted feelings of lack of

586
00:33:57,400 --> 00:34:01,300
self-love and like that imposter
syndrome that if they really

587
00:34:01,300 --> 00:34:04,100
knew me they would see how how
stupid I am or how filling the

588
00:34:04,100 --> 00:34:08,000
blank I am and all of it, all of
it.

589
00:34:08,000 --> 00:34:10,600
That's the try to tragic part.
All of it is just a

590
00:34:10,600 --> 00:34:15,500
misunderstanding and it's all
fixable malleable changeable.

591
00:34:15,500 --> 00:34:16,400
Yes.
Yeah.

592
00:34:16,800 --> 00:34:20,300
Because even the, the man who
insists are not feeling it

593
00:34:20,300 --> 00:34:22,800
denying.
Emotions I find that they are

594
00:34:22,800 --> 00:34:25,400
living in the most fear.
Because it's fear in one

595
00:34:25,400 --> 00:34:27,699
thinking that they have a heart
that they feel that they're saw

596
00:34:27,699 --> 00:34:29,500
that they might even cry.
It's fear of anyone, knowing

597
00:34:29,500 --> 00:34:31,800
their truth.
That keeps them living a lie.

598
00:34:32,100 --> 00:34:35,000
Yeah, it's hard.
I think that I think it's.

599
00:34:35,000 --> 00:34:37,400
Yeah.
I think it's another aspect of

600
00:34:37,408 --> 00:34:40,400
that is you know that we think
that a to show feelings is

601
00:34:40,400 --> 00:34:43,300
feminine because little boys
don't cry.

602
00:34:43,300 --> 00:34:45,500
Well way is that because only
two little girls cries like wait

603
00:34:45,500 --> 00:34:47,900
a minute.
Let's let's look at that because

604
00:34:47,900 --> 00:34:51,800
there's so many does this some
faulty premises in that one?

605
00:34:52,500 --> 00:34:54,800
Is that the emotions are we?
Weakness.

606
00:34:54,800 --> 00:34:56,699
It's like, wait a minute.
Emotions are not weakness,

607
00:34:56,699 --> 00:34:58,600
they're not strength either.
They're not, they're not good.

608
00:34:58,600 --> 00:35:00,100
They're not bad.
They're Just Energy.

609
00:35:00,700 --> 00:35:03,500
Depending on how we express them
to have a good or not.

610
00:35:03,500 --> 00:35:06,700
So good effect but the, the
emotion itself is just an

611
00:35:06,700 --> 00:35:09,800
energy.
And then that the that the

612
00:35:09,800 --> 00:35:13,600
assumption that the feminine is
weaknesses, like wait a minute.

613
00:35:14,200 --> 00:35:19,700
You want to tug our courage
resilience ability to withstand

614
00:35:19,700 --> 00:35:21,700
pain.
Let's talk about the power of

615
00:35:21,700 --> 00:35:26,800
creation that resides in a
female body and I think of the

616
00:35:26,800 --> 00:35:29,600
story of, you know, from Betty
White him who left his in the be

617
00:35:29,600 --> 00:35:34,900
about a year ago and in our
unique way I think she's so the

618
00:35:34,900 --> 00:35:37,100
story goes something like this.
She was being interviewed in one

619
00:35:37,100 --> 00:35:41,000
of those.
One of those TV shows with

620
00:35:41,000 --> 00:35:44,300
multiple celebrities so it was a
discussion going on and somebody

621
00:35:44,300 --> 00:35:47,400
said something about having
balls and she goes, wait, just a

622
00:35:47,408 --> 00:35:50,300
minute.
Would we get this Association

623
00:35:50,500 --> 00:35:53,800
that with balls and having
courage or strength?

624
00:35:53,800 --> 00:35:55,900
You know you thought those
little things and the guy

625
00:35:55,900 --> 00:36:01,200
collapses bends over in severe
pain you want to talk courage,

626
00:36:01,200 --> 00:36:04,500
you want to talk strength.
Let's talk about China's those

627
00:36:04,500 --> 00:36:06,200
things.
Take a pounding.

628
00:36:08,000 --> 00:36:12,700
Yeah, it's going to be all that,
but it's so true and just shows

629
00:36:12,700 --> 00:36:17,000
like how far back are distorted
thinking goes and what we've

630
00:36:17,000 --> 00:36:19,100
been taught.
And again, that's going back to

631
00:36:19,100 --> 00:36:21,900
the generations.
I'm seeing younger than ours,

632
00:36:22,600 --> 00:36:24,200
they're waking up.
They're recognizing these

633
00:36:24,200 --> 00:36:26,200
falsehoods much quicker.
Yes.

634
00:36:26,200 --> 00:36:29,300
So again, I really backed up the
best of times.

635
00:36:29,300 --> 00:36:31,700
The worst of times, we really
are at the love, the potential

636
00:36:31,700 --> 00:36:34,300
for this dawn of a new time for,
for all humans.

637
00:36:34,300 --> 00:36:37,900
And Men, especially to be able
to lead the way from A Soulful.

638
00:36:38,000 --> 00:36:41,500
Not in the Golic one, not a
power over things but it is a

639
00:36:41,500 --> 00:36:45,700
powerful ability to to open up.
That's right behind it with I

640
00:36:45,707 --> 00:36:49,000
guess I'm in my power.
Why would I possibly be

641
00:36:49,000 --> 00:36:50,500
threatened by you being in your
power?

642
00:36:50,500 --> 00:36:52,600
I can celebrate that.
I can share that.

643
00:36:52,800 --> 00:36:55,000
I can honor that sec.
I know who I am.

644
00:36:56,000 --> 00:36:59,100
I can handle whatever you throw
my way.

645
00:36:59,900 --> 00:37:03,100
So Awakening the solar power.
You say it's book one in a

646
00:37:03,100 --> 00:37:05,300
calling all heroes series,
correct.

647
00:37:05,500 --> 00:37:07,700
Can you give any teasers about
what's to come?

648
00:37:07,700 --> 00:37:10,400
What What you have in plan as to
which I just committed.

649
00:37:10,400 --> 00:37:13,800
I just facilitated many years
and years, virtual Retreat.

650
00:37:13,800 --> 00:37:17,900
And I committed to finish book
tour this year about 50% done.

651
00:37:18,900 --> 00:37:21,700
And, because writing is what?
I resist the most, what I

652
00:37:21,707 --> 00:37:25,000
procrastinate on the most
buttery, but I made the

653
00:37:25,008 --> 00:37:27,100
commitment and I'm recommitting
here publicly.

654
00:37:28,800 --> 00:37:31,200
So, that one is on
relationships, like, how to do

655
00:37:31,200 --> 00:37:33,900
relationships consciously.
And I think, because most of us,

656
00:37:34,600 --> 00:37:36,500
that's the area where we give
away our power.

657
00:37:36,700 --> 00:37:39,200
And, and the book is about
Relationships that is going to

658
00:37:39,200 --> 00:37:44,400
have a particular focus on
romantic intimate relationships.

659
00:37:45,400 --> 00:37:47,900
And so how did what does it mean
to have them consciously?

660
00:37:48,800 --> 00:37:51,100
And so if you are in
relationship and you've got the

661
00:37:51,100 --> 00:37:54,800
basic human needs for love and
sex and companionship, and

662
00:37:54,800 --> 00:37:58,800
family and all that good stuff.
Then what how do we use that

663
00:37:58,800 --> 00:38:03,100
container of the relationship to
fast-track our own process of

664
00:38:03,100 --> 00:38:06,000
healing and transformation?
Which is what we're here for

665
00:38:06,000 --> 00:38:10,300
ultimately I hope it everybody
listening to listening to this

666
00:38:10,300 --> 00:38:12,100
or watching this now knows that
there.

667
00:38:12,100 --> 00:38:14,800
Isn't anybody out there who's
going to make us happy?

668
00:38:16,100 --> 00:38:19,800
Not going to happen and it's not
their job to if that's how we're

669
00:38:19,800 --> 00:38:22,300
approaching relationship, you're
going to make me happy.

670
00:38:22,300 --> 00:38:25,800
Forget it, hang it up.
It's not going to happen and how

671
00:38:25,800 --> 00:38:28,800
unfair to put that
responsibility on somebody else,

672
00:38:28,800 --> 00:38:32,200
not even fair.
So only we can make ourselves

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happy obviously.
And and so then how do if you're

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not a relationship and would
like to be how do we identify

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00:38:39,800 --> 00:38:44,500
and remove release the
subconscious patterns that have

676
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a sabotaging, our relationship,
Ships sometimes.

677
00:38:46,900 --> 00:38:51,200
Before they get go by attracting
people by Falling for people who

678
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are not a match, who are not
available there already with

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somebody else or they live on
the other side of the world or

680
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they're just not there.
So what's going on with that?

681
00:39:02,000 --> 00:39:05,100
You know why?
If we say we want relationship,

682
00:39:05,100 --> 00:39:07,700
why do we end up doing this?
Hmm, you know, like career but

683
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not too close, right?
And so we look at what's going

684
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on under the surface so that we
can clear.

685
00:39:15,700 --> 00:39:21,000
Are those subconscious patterns
and, and stop blocking love in

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our lives.
I love the work.

687
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You're doing powerful
conversation.

688
00:39:25,300 --> 00:39:26,900
It's a powerful book.
I highly recommend it.

689
00:39:26,900 --> 00:39:29,400
I highly recommend people
experience breath work because

690
00:39:29,600 --> 00:39:32,800
when I first experienced that I
thought, you know, if we brought

691
00:39:32,800 --> 00:39:36,500
this to high schools drug use
would stop because the power to

692
00:39:36,500 --> 00:39:39,600
have these amazing experiences
and visualizations and you know,

693
00:39:39,600 --> 00:39:43,300
just just have the trippy as
experience I ever had came from

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00:39:43,300 --> 00:39:45,600
my own breath and that just
continues to amaze me.

695
00:39:46,000 --> 00:39:48,200
Yes.
But Christian, what's the best

696
00:39:48,200 --> 00:39:51,600
way for people to learn more
about about you and and the book

697
00:39:51,600 --> 00:39:52,700
and everything you've got going
on?

698
00:39:53,900 --> 00:39:56,400
Well, if they want to find out
more about breathwork, my tedx

699
00:39:56,400 --> 00:39:57,900
talk is on the power of the
breath.

700
00:39:57,900 --> 00:39:59,700
So just Google the power of the
breath.

701
00:40:00,700 --> 00:40:04,600
Oh look it up on YouTube.
In terms of the book is

702
00:40:04,600 --> 00:40:06,900
available wherever you want to
wherever books are sold.

703
00:40:06,900 --> 00:40:09,500
So if you want your not support,
your local bookstore, order it

704
00:40:09,500 --> 00:40:11,500
there.
If you want to, if not, you just

705
00:40:11,500 --> 00:40:15,600
get it on Amazon or any of those
online websites, that sell

706
00:40:15,600 --> 00:40:18,500
books.
In terms of reaching me,

707
00:40:18,500 --> 00:40:21,100
probably my website is the best
way to do that.

708
00:40:21,100 --> 00:40:23,500
And once they go there, they can
access my Social.

709
00:40:23,600 --> 00:40:29,100
Via the website is Soulful,
power.com sou, LF you elle.com,

710
00:40:30,100 --> 00:40:35,100
I mean power.com and then for
for your audience, anybody who

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00:40:35,100 --> 00:40:38,600
goes and gets on my email list
and we know how easy it is to

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00:40:38,600 --> 00:40:40,600
click unsubscribe.
If it doesn't work for you down

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00:40:40,600 --> 00:40:44,600
the road, but anybody who gets
on our email list, will send

714
00:40:44,600 --> 00:40:47,100
them, a sample sample, chapter
of the book, and it happens to

715
00:40:47,100 --> 00:40:50,900
be the one that that talks about
what it means to live heroically

716
00:40:50,900 --> 00:40:54,500
in the 21st century.
So, Back to your very first

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00:40:54,500 --> 00:40:59,000
question will send them some
power practices, so designed to

718
00:40:59,000 --> 00:41:01,300
integrate the teaching.
So they don't stay at the level

719
00:41:01,300 --> 00:41:04,500
of information because we don't
need more information.

720
00:41:04,500 --> 00:41:08,800
We've got information overload.
What we need is transformation

721
00:41:08,900 --> 00:41:13,000
and that only comes from really,
applying and living from a set

722
00:41:13,000 --> 00:41:16,600
of teachings and then we'll send
them a meditation.

723
00:41:16,600 --> 00:41:21,100
I did a short teaching and I got
a meditation on how to find

724
00:41:21,100 --> 00:41:23,400
trust how to move to a place of
trust.

725
00:41:23,900 --> 00:41:28,200
During these times in which we
live of chaos and fear and

726
00:41:28,200 --> 00:41:31,100
uncertainty.
Well, thanks again so much

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00:41:31,100 --> 00:41:35,000
Christian for sharing what trip
to with us getting the book out

728
00:41:35,000 --> 00:41:38,900
there, sharing your life
experiences because you're

729
00:41:38,900 --> 00:41:42,200
exactly the kind of man, I love
to talk to on real Midfield, a

730
00:41:42,200 --> 00:41:44,900
man willing to share what he's
gone through and then share how

731
00:41:44,900 --> 00:41:49,300
he's being of service to the
world and we all have the

732
00:41:49,300 --> 00:41:51,400
potential to be of service to
the world and it starts with

733
00:41:51,500 --> 00:41:53,500
serving yourself without a
doubt.

734
00:41:53,600 --> 00:41:55,900
Yeah, so get out of here into
your soul.

735
00:41:56,700 --> 00:41:58,600
Awesome.
Thanks again for joining us.

736
00:41:58,600 --> 00:42:00,800
Thanks very much for listening.
Wherever you're discovering real

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00:42:00,800 --> 00:42:02,600
men, feel please do all the
things.

738
00:42:02,600 --> 00:42:05,500
The platform allows you to do.
Like, follow subscribe, share,

739
00:42:05,500 --> 00:42:07,300
comment, whatever it is, you can
do there.

740
00:42:07,400 --> 00:42:09,700
We appreciate the support.
You can always reach out to me

741
00:42:09,700 --> 00:42:12,100
at real men.
Feel at gmail.com, always glad

742
00:42:12,100 --> 00:42:15,200
to hear from you.
And until next time, be good to

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00:42:15,200 --> 00:42:19,400
yourself, love yourself and be
willing to be the hero in your

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00:42:19,400 --> 00:42:19,900
life.